My dwelling.

Man, it has been a long time since I have posted, or even thought about posting in here. Seems like a better time than ever to let my creative juices flow and let the many thoughts and daily happenings translate into tangible words that can be shared with those who care.

My dwelling: University of Colorado Hospital. This has been my special little home for a week and three days. Friends, I tell you now don't be alarmed if this is news to you. I am here to feel my very best. Every now and then I need a little boost to feel spectacular and this is the time. It's actually a blessing that I GET to take vacations in the hospital because not many people get a chance to share such a strong sense of hope in a seemingly scary, and hopeless situation. I encounter about 10 people a day, hey that's 9 more reasons and opportunities than I need. 

As far as how I'm doing. . . great. And when I say that, I mean it. Although I am prisoner in my own room, I am getting by. This time around my motivation might be that this visit feels a bit different. See, usually with time my lungs should decrease in function. Scary? Maybe. Not really for me. In the past year since coming to Denver my lungs have increased. And this time, we believe and hope for another 5% increase. This may sound impossible, or silly, but I serve a God who shows off in the face of impossible. So my motivation through all this is that I will get to be a living witness of an ongoing miracle. 

My current roommate is a stationary bike. His name is Xu875. I hate him most of the time, and can't wait to get home and ride my own bike. Nonetheless, I am thankful that he's my exercise buddy, he deals with a lot. 

It's real easy to get lazy here. I have realized how much I have become sucked in to this life of depending on entertainment. I have been complaining because there are 7.4 cable channels and a VHS collection that  consists of movies made before I was born. I only half kid when I say the hospital needs to invest in things that actually matter, like updated DVD collections ;). 

God has really been challenging me in this time of silence, boredom, and stillness. I believe, or believed, that there aren't any reasons to be sad when living in the fullness, and joyful life that He offers us. Yes, because of our broken world, and human nature we are sad, depressed, and doubtful. I had a day this week where I was just upset. I was sad, I couldn't shake it. Maybe I was feeling bad for myself,  can't really say what it was. I couldn't even muster up energy to ask God for strength. I have learned from this day that God's love for me, for you, is so greater than I can even understand. It's a power that we will never grasp. He provided people in my life to intercede on my behalf, He provided people to encourage, uplift, and speak truth to me. He didn't give up on me because I doubted Him or needed even more reasons to just be content, satisfied, and tranquil in His presence. I didn't deserve any of the blessings I received but He knows how weak and sinful I am and loves me enough to not leave me there. I can't remain dry eyed even thinking about that. Wow. 

I am ever so thankful for my time here, my caring father, huge-hearted brother, my church family support, my friends who text, skype, call and visit, ravishing flowers, and my very present, close God. 

In His love.