So, this week has been full of just unexpected... chaos.. I guess you could say. I came out to Colorado last week for the sole purpose of meeting some doctors. I told myself I wouldn't have expectations, but, of course, deep down I did. I'm happy and relived to say that the doctors out here met and exceeded my expectations. For once, I feel like I'm not fighting alone for myself, and I have hope that obstacles can be overcome, and more importantly WILL. Even though I had such a great meeting with the specialists, there were some change of plans. These "change of plans" have been such a blessing, though. Through this hard time I'm realizing a few things. One: no matter how far away from family and friends you are, you are not alone. It's so crazy that I've never felt more loved and closer to my friends and family then I have being here and I'm 500+ miles away. More importantly, though, I've learned that God equips us with the exact and perfect resources and tools we need to help ourselves. Essentially, we are not really helping ourselves, but through Him we are. I don't think I've given myself more pep talks in my life than I have here. I feel as if every other 20 minutes I have to talk myself through something, that it will be okay, that I have the strength. I know I hear my voice, but it's not really me talking. That's the cool thing. I'm so in awe of just how great His power is. I mean, I knew that. I knew "He's always with me". That's the thing to say, right? Everyone knows that. I guess before now I just sort of said it, never truly experienced it this way. I think that this whole experience is more than helping heal my physical self. I think there was a bigger plan. I am learning, and leaning more and more every day. I have this sense that I'm supposed to learn something huge. I haven't figured it out yet, or "learned" it yet, but I feel it coming.
More to come. Stay tuned.
